As the AH gets further into this Agnostic thing, I get more scared. Scared mostly because what will people think. I mean we do live in the bible belt. I have begged him and if I’m honest threatened him to NOT tell any of mine or his family. I know what it did to me and I don’t want them to have to go through that pain as well, worrying about his soul and all. He said that’s not fair, what if this truth could free some of our family. He says religion is very stifling and makes you feel guilty a lot, but because he loves and cares for me and them he will not say a word. He will continue to act like the Christian he was.
Now I realize that this is very unfair to him, as he has said as much, but he has also said that I did not marry an Agnostic I married a Christian and to keep the peace all around he will be quiet. He really is a good man. I know it’s selfish and unfair, but until I figure this all out I don’t really care. And I have decided that if I chose to become Agnostic that I probably will never tell another soul. My family would just die. It would be the equivalent of telling them I was gay or something. Not saying that derogatorily, but you know how stuffy some Christians can be, however who knows they might surprise me and say thank goodness, we’ve been thinking this stuff all along and have been afraid to let you know, although I seriously doubt that.
What do you think, is it selfish and unfair to ask this of the AH?