Hard Time

I’ve had a hard time the past week trying to decipher and decide and really it’s all been emotionally draining. One moment I’m think no way God’s not real, and the next I think seriously who believes this crap. It’s a very odd place to be in. I’ve had a hard time gathering my thoughts and had no clue on what to write about here. It all gives me a headache at times and makes me want to be as far away from the computer as I can be.

As I was riding in the car today the thought came to me. What the hell, do we really think there is a man in the sky listening to our every prayer and he has some sort of magic and can perform things, but only if he wants to or we say the magic word. At that moment I thought NOT, but the moment passed a few hours later than I felt guilty.

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About theagnosticswife

Living in the bible belt, in middle America, with a once Christian husband who has turned Agnostic. I no longer know what I believe.
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One Response to Hard Time

  1. Nikki says:

    i’ve read your comments on mckmama’s post today. i totally relate to everything you’ve said, and am looking forward to following your blog.

    i feel like i am searching. i feel like i’m waiting for something to show me the way. i feel like that goes against believing in god, though.

    i just don’t think i could ever say, “i know the truth. i know the way. jesus is the way.” i don’t see how anyone can ever say that. we just can’t know.

    plus, i have a hard time with the bible. it just doesn’t make sense, and i cannot find the relevance to today. how can people live their lives based on a book written by a man’s interpretation THOUSANDS of years ago.

    sorry for ranting on your blog…but, i have many of the same feelings as you, and wanted to say hello!

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