Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I do need something that I think is bigger than me. Maybe I do need to have something that I can turn over my stress to. Just give them away until I feel better equip to deal with them.
I had a bad evening Thursday night and a really, really bad migraine on Friday. One that actually made me throw up and that was after taking my migraine medicine and two Aleve chasers. It happens when I become super stressed, even though I try to control my stress, it happens in my sleep and I wake up in pain. I wish that didn’t happen to me. It’s few and far between, but it was a hum dinger this time.
It will probably come as no surprise that it was brought on by an argument with my mom. I’m just so confused and hurt.
Anyway, I needed to relieve some serious stress and for years I’ve gone to “my happy place” to do so. Basically it’s a form of mediation or biofeedback. My happy place is, of course, the ocean, so I imagine myself on the sand and I breath in and out to my imagined waves. I imagine sending my stress out with the waves. While doing this I realized that I have replaced god with the ocean. What I mean by that is to me the ocean is bigger than me. It can give and it can take. I don’t pray to it, but I appreciate it and I imagine giving it my worries, to float off and disintegrate. It’s kind of weird I know, but it really does help me to let go of the tension and stress and I need that because I can’t deal with migraines all the time.
How do you cope with stress? Do you meditate?
Am I the only weird one who can calm themselves by virtually going to their happy place?